I sit and think Maybe i should be Alone, i mean no one gets me like me. i rather be alone then giving someone the false idea that they comfort me, but usually i live in my own abyss. This abyss is grey. Good and bad with a peaceful relaxing tone to it. if you can get it you can stay
September 2011
I hate the confines of this society at which we are forced to deal with. You hear the line that is just the way it is and you are forced to fit, but no one attempts to change the system. So now i must wear nice clothes to catch attention , wear suits because that shows competence in my work somehow. i need to worry about the way i walk and talk to get a job and pray no one has a bad perspective of me. Lets be honest, the whiter you dress the more people think of you. everything we strive for is European, cars, clothes and jewelry. it is ordinary to be looked down upon for wearing thuggish or gothic clothing. i want to own a business and hire people based only on knowledge and hard work, not how they look on the outside, and they will be able to wear whatever they want to work.
I know some people won’t like this, but fuck this crazy day we call 911 and stick together, we should do the same for disasters also we lose a lot of people in some of those times. i do not know whether it was a conspiracy or not but it is highly probable because at that point everyone hated the bush administration, and i highly doubt he would have been elected again if 911 didn’t occur. Also i feel the defense system would have stopped them, we have the best intelligence agencies in the world, so i also believe we could have def known and stopped them. whether or not it is a conspiracy idk i wasn’t there but if it wasn’t there is still the main fact that we got crazy over two buildings that basically represent money which is at the root of all evil. after 911 they made it seem like it was the symbol freedom , NO! that is the statue of liberty. We also trash entire cities , this is like the only damage we have received besides civil war and the bombing of pearl harbor, we don’t fight on our soil so go where they do , we destroy villages built by hand , not for money but to survive. so calm the fuck down over this day. i do have great sorrow from all the people who died in those towers and for all the families it has affected. It’s not good for anyone to feel that way. But i personally “lean” towards the conspiracy idea, was any of Bush’s family in the towers? probably not. fuck the buildings because if we were on the other side where they fault it would be constantly the opposite of what cushion we get here. it would be more normal to have destruction then times of peace. When you do that silence thing that happens all over the country, think of the lost souls from the buildings, the rescue teams , the planes and from debris complication , but not for the buildings or any other thing we can make a new one
At this point of my life i am seeing a steady resemblance in between the same sexes. other then that i believe we are all the same. Females have this amazing gift of staying devoted for like ever, from a young age, and men tend to have the typical “settle down” problems. i feel as tho i am a good guy but at the same time i have this pulling saying she may not be the best one for you even tho i am happy with her. it is like she is not enough while trying her best. But how do you really know. i feel the man approach is a little safer and conservative in the long run, but you could leave the one you were meant to be with. The females system is more of a game of chance and they are putting all their chips on one early bet, early meaning a high school gf or even freshmen college. in the end, if you are that guy that she decides to bet on , you are totally lucky and should do you best not to hurt her leaving her bankrupted. but i believe you ladies have a gift so powerful that you shouldn’t put it on the first guy who shows you respect, that should be a the base line of how you decide who to love. Nothing is better then the un dying love of a women